Update

Things are good, I should be happy.

The guy I liked at work didn't turn out so nice, but he set me up with his friend, who is amazing. After seeing each other for a while we became "official" last night. I should feel happy but I feel like I forced him into a relationship. I'd felt awful when we were just seeing each other. It just felt wrong with me when we'd sleep together and be intimate.

Work is going well. I'm in a new team, with a new manager and I get on well with everyone.

I'm fat though. Horrible and wobbly. I keep bingeing but don't get much chance to purge now. I hate myself for my lack of willpower. I just hate everything about me.