Eh

Wow. Bad times.

I went mental. Crazy fucking mental and was going to kill myself, but my boyfriend came over and stayed with me. The night before last. I went to the doctor today and she came me diazepam to help me sleep, so I can get things under control.

I think things are fucked with the boyfriend though.

Goddamn.

Someone else? I don't want anyone else, that's the problem. I could have someone else, but I want him. Just not him as he is now. I need a little bit more. Affection. Closeness. I doubt I will get it from him.

That's all I want to say now. I'm trying not to feel shit.