Doctor

I'm going to the doctor shortly. I made the appointment to ask about contraception and stopping smoking but the psychologist says she wants me to request blood tests while I'm there, for electrolyte imbalances.

I'm terrified the doctor will say or do something, and this means that my eating disorder's going on my health records. If it's just with the psychologist and psychiatrist it's all kept quiet, and it's only stuff like medication that gets put on records, not what is actually wrong with you, it's all separate. 

Oh god.

This is going to be there permanently, and potential employers and health insurance companies will see it, and it will be a big black mark against the rest of my life.